TMI

*Disclaimer* This is very personal...and if you don't like things that include too much information then please don't read...however, if it doesn't bother you read on.

So today hubby and I went to the fertility clinic and didn't get the news we had hoped for. They did an analysis on him and on myself. For males a low average count is about 20million, well currently we are at 1.5...hey only 18.5 MILLION off! I also had an analysis done...they found cysts (nothing major like PCOS), but still some there and they are sending me for blood work to look at why my periods are SO abnormal. Then I have to do the dye thing to make sure my uterus and tubes are open and flowing. SO what to do? Well, they are sending hubby to urinologist to make sure everything is okay and then he will give us options to try and raise our count and put me on meds to regulate everything...gee golly fun...right? Anyway the doctor explained it to us like this:

1. We can do an artificial insemination (his boys, but mixed outside and then injected in), but we have to have a count of 10 million to do this option.
OR
2. IVF- which costs MEGA money (about $10,000 dollars) and insurance does not cover it...so that is out of pocket! This is not including all the work and appointments that lead up to or follow this and there is NO guarantee that it will work.

These next few weeks are going to be difficult and filled with doctors appointments and procedures. Please be praying for us as we go through this....I know it may be in God's plan for us not to have children, but we would like to try. I told dh I didn't think I could go through all the IVF stuff and then have it not work...I would rather adopt, but it's not the same thing. Anyway, any positive thoughts you could send our way would be great (and sorry for the rambling)!